Dave - thank you. Sometimes in the middle of the nite I get very fuckin emotional - and I guess it hit me. Most of the time I can reel it back in and sometimes I don’t even bother to. I don’t even attempt to - ya know? In the morning light however that post just was glaring at me and screaming for protection. So I did it. I think it’s fine to be read - but just having it out in the open all accessible and stuff makes me feel just a tad more vulnerable than I would like - so I password protected it.

For everyone that didn’t get to read it before I protected it - it’s no great secret. The password is van. That’s it. But be warned. It’s pretty heavy, really. And probably not the type of post that will make you horny and want to run over to NF to call me. I’m saying that sort of with tongue in cheek. Sort of. But it is something that happened to me - something that is on my mind - and something I just wanted to get out. Not sure if I wanted to share it - but I’ve transformed this little blog into a somewhat heavier vessel of um… of a diary, maybe (?). Anyways - I had to write it - so feel free to read or to skip it - depending on what you can handle. K?

I have gotten called into work AGAIN by the evil inconsiderate work gods - so I’ll be leaving here soon to go work out for 8 hours or so. Good god. I’ll be back on because tomorrow is Friday and even though I STILL have to work ONCE AGAIN on Friday - I won’t have to go in so damn early at least and can play a bit. So I’ll be on taking calls around 10:00PM and will stay on as long as my little eyes can stay open. Maybe 3 or 4:00am.

Thanks again Dave for reading my post down below - and for delicately giving your opinion. I took it to heart and it wasn’t out of line for you to say anything.

C.