I’ve been asked to move in with a friend of mine from work. Not this work, sillies! From my GYM work. It started off innocently enough - but then it started to get a bit serious. And I’d really like to consider it. I’m actually considering it in a major way - but there is a part of me … I guess it’s called the responsible part of me, that knows that this would be a HUGE HUGE move for me - and one that may not turn out half as nice as my fantasy of it. Maybe that’s just being Debbie Downer though.

Can I at least just talk about it like it could actually happen, though? Like for a few paragraphs.

I would have my own room - well, actually my own MASTER BEDROOM complete with bath, ya know. That’s what that means! lol. And I would share the living space with my one and only roommate - and then I would have access to the pool (yeah - there is a pool) and the balcony. *sigh* It’s about 15 minutes from where I currently stay - and I would only have to really pay about 500-600 dollars a month. She’s having pity on me because well - I am a student, you know. It really sounds really nice. I really would like to do it. But then a part of me realizes that to make such a jump right now wouldn’t be the wisest thing to do. But then I figure I’m suppose to take risks and things at this point of my life, right? And then there is the whole roommate thing. I mean - I LOVE my potential roommate. She was my boss at one time and she is an absolute sweetheart. But then she doesn’t know about what I do either and do I really need to be in another situation where I’m hiding behind my “webdesign” business? And then there is the fact that I really don’t think my parents would go for me moving out. But I really want to. And then there is the matter about the puppy. I really want a puppy. But I know I can’t possibly afford a puppy, apartment, and my car. And then there is school, too. Everything points to staying put for another year or so except for my heart. And my heart tells me to move on out. I mean - I am SO there!!!

I could decorate my room my very own room and have a life outside of my families life - and I would still see them of course - but not EVERY minute - not that I do now - but it gets to feeling like that sometimes. And maybe I could have the puppy there, too - except my family really wants a puppy too and I think they were counting on being with me and the puppy for a bit of time. But then they could get their own puppy, too, right?

I’m fairly sure that this leap into adult hood is not going to happen for me for some time. I’m certain of it. But I would really like to be thrust into that world for a minute just to see how it feels on that side of the fence - in the deep end of the pool - on the grown up table - in that neck of the woods. I’d like to be sitting in a living room with my friend from work - and sit and talk to her about all the silly things that went on at school and plan little dinner parties together and things like that. I’d like to go shopping for a bedroom set - and sit on the balcony during warm summer nites like tonight and know that 500 dollars of the space was mine. I’d really like that.

Soon. But soon isn’t now. Cuz I’m responsible and I know my limitations - even when it sucks to be faced with the truth of the situation.

It was a nice few paragraphs while it lasted, though… wasn’t it?