I had philosophy class today.  I’m not sure about my professor.  He tends to really dig the guy students in class.  By now everyone should know I have this insane need to please men in positions of authority.  The fact that my teacher prefers male students, to the point that he often asks them (and there are more men in philosophy class than women - interesting?) more questions and has discussions with them about their reactions to our readings while the women sit around and … I don’t know, look cute?  It’s unsettling.  And for me, the one in our family most likely to argue anything to the point of fossilized horse - never mind dead horse - I find my teacher not asking me questions infuriating. To say the least.  So Philosophy class is my favorite class, but I enjoy my math class more.  Yeah.  I said it. 

I enjoy discussing things.  My blog should be proof of that, right?  But I enjoy answers.  I enjoy knowing the answers and I enjoy showing the person who dares to argue with me the error of his/her ways.  In philosophy there is no clear answer.  It seems like it’s really about a bunch of people - pardon me - MEN - sitting around with long white beards talking themselves into circles and in the end?  Everyone ends up having the satisfaction of telling the other person that their arguments, though worthy, mean nothing and they will continue believing what they want to!  It’s even different than literature in my opinion.  In literature there is always (most often) the author or notes from the author so that you have an idea of the interpretation.  There is also some connection to something that you have gone through - some human experience that binds us to the book that we can hold onto.  But philosophy?  “Is there a God.”  Well - damn.  How long have we been debating this idea?  “Is there such a thing as free will?”  Well - damn- if you convince me that there isn’t,  I’ll be reconsidering my whole life! Is there such a thing as Universal Good and Bad?  Are there things universally speaking that are bad no matter if you live in the suburbs of Southern California or in a village in the middle of the rain forest?  When I leave philosophy - I’m left with a list of books that I want to read - but no answers whatsoever.  Do people get paid for this?  Thinking?  Wait - let me rephrase that… Do people get paid for thinking and never coming up with any answer just more questions?  And people had a problem with my career choice to one day be a novelist!  So in case any one has some spare time on their hands and wants to know what I’m reading and maybe pick up a book or two or dust off the books on your shelves and take out some writings by Aristotle, here is the list of books SO FAR for my philosophy class.  I have about 1/3 of them so far with no time to read any of them.  Well, except for The Language of God by Francis Collins.  That book is really a great read.  I have a few C.S. Lewis books that are pretty fascinating, too: Mere Christianity, and Surprised By Joy.  My father dropped Aristotle’s Of Man & The Universe in my lap the other day.  I read the first page 10 times before I understood what the first paragraph was saying.  Some of these philosophers pack so many thoughts into one sentence it makes my head swim.  I’d like to pick up a book by Luann Brizendine that my teacher recommended called The Female Brain - which is suppose to be a good introduction to neuroscience.  I’d also like to pick up some Plato - with cliff notes.  We were talking about the stages of death today and I remembered in one of my classes discussing Elisabeth Kubler Ross who wrote On Death and Dying. And there are many more, but those are the books that stand out.  So my point?  How does anyone ever get a degree out there?  There are so many things to read - so many things to discover - so many things to figure out!  And once you take one class don’t you want to take another class?  I mean - now I want to take a religion class so I can figure out if I want to continue half way practicing my little rituals that my religion calls me to do - or if I just wanna trade it in for some cooler religion/spiritual practice like Buddhism.  The more you learn - the more you want to learn, don’t you?  I do.  The more I hear about a particular philosopher, the more I want to read about the people who influenced him.  The more I want to read about what he thought was important and the books that helped shape him (or her) - the more I want to read everything.  And who has time for all that?  All my classes have this hope that I’ll drop my plans on being whatever I thought I was going to be before I entered their class - and most of the time I consider it for a half a minute.  And I’m aware that school is all about trying to figure things out - but there is so much to figure out and so much to learn and know.  And there are only so many hours in a day.  And some of those hours I have to spend with you (smiles) and the other hours I need to spend spinning (LOL!)

Enough of that!  There are some things I’m working on that should be revealed sometime on Sunday as I’m still on schedule. annnnnd… it’s officially the weekend!  And while I have studying to do - I also can (if I let myself) sleep in tomorrow and lounge about, play with toys and you whenever I (and you) feel like it.  Tonight (Friday) I will be available till at least midnight.  I’ll play it by ear and let ya know via twitter.  Tomorrow I plan on having a little bit of time logged in during the day/early afternoon if possible.  For sure I’ll be logging in on Saturday from 10:00PM (maybe earlier if I’m around…) until 1:00/2:00 am.  Sunday I’d like to work early as I have to be in bed by 10:00PM at least so I’m up and alert by 6:00 to go to my spin class at school.  I also have a list of things to do that will keep me quite busy this weekend, in addition to my math homework I need to complete and some reading I need to do in philosophy.  Don’t let my schedule for school scare you, though.  I’ll have plenty of time to play - and actually require it.  It keeps me sane and relieves tension to masturbate, didn’t you know? hehe.

Have a great weekend - stay of trouble (or call me if you can’t help yourself! )  and take a look at the moon when you can (and it’s visible).  It’s pretty beautiful and more than romantic.   Speak to you soon!

So on Sunday Evening I was doing this little dance between homework and the oscars that lasted until 10:00PM. I use to adore the oscars. I was that movie fanatic that made sure she saw every damn movie possible before election night, and then rooted silently for my favorites. I know enough Oscar trivia to make me an official snob and I think the whole gown thing before hand is irrelevant fluff since it’s really all about the art, damn it (said with effective English accent). *courtesies* Having said all that, however, there were a few moments that were of absolute delight. I’d like to bore you totally by recounting a few of them:

• Hugh is absolutely fantastic. Not only is he attractive, but it is clear that he also is a lover of musicals, which, as you should know, is VERY important to me. He has a very nice singing voice, and he has quite the moves as well. He was a gracious host, and I believe he set the mood to some old time Hollywood moment/s that we don’t get enough of these days. The whole evening, with Hugh steering the Love Boat, was terribly nostalgic. Intelligent, Entertaining, and Charming. Great Job, Hugh! (call me)
• The presentation of the Oscars (Whoopi, I love you girlfriend, but what in the name of all that is good and holy were you wearing? Damn - luckily you speak poetry and wisdom and you’re just so damn smart so even though you’ll be in every magazine tomorrow morning - you’ll still be respected. *whew*)
  had to be one of the most endearing qualities of the night for me. Sure, it was a little over the top sometimes to see a bunch of actresses kissing other actresses asses (wait - I forgot my readership…actresses kissing other actresses asses might be appealing, right? lol!), but I thought the sentiment was honest and pure. To hear the respect from the previous winners - and the kind words they gave to the nominees, was really sweet. Sweet sounds too corny - but you know what I mean. If I were one of the women waiting to see if I could take home the oscar, just hearing what my idols said about me would be seriously gift enough. God. How lucky they were - and what a sweet gift.
• Slum Dog Millionaire. Nuff said.
• The Best Screen Play Speech. OMG. I bawled like a baby, then cheered like I was there in the audience. What a absolute lovely thing to say. How brave. How fitting. How fuckin true. Bravo, Dustin Lance Black! I heart you!

So there you have it. In a nutshell. As usual, during the few moments I watched, my mind also found a way to incorporate fantasies into it because, Ladies and Gentlemen, that is what happens after 2 years of Niteflirt. Every moment becomes an opportunity for a role play/fantasy/experience. For example: if my favorite femmy “D” calls me this evening (or next…) I have a GREAT Oscar Party we can go to. Mmhm! We’ll be dressed up like stars, and hand out the goody bags at one of the finest parties and… well… you know my demented mind. We’ll definitely have a ‘ball’. I know. I’ve become warped.

I’m on my way to school (math class) and then back for a few appointments this afternoon, and then to the gym for some cardio (There’s a spin class in the evening…). I usually take Tuesday’s off (from the gym), but I have some time this afternoon and I’ll need a little boost of energy for tonight’s calls. Sorry about yesterday evening, I was busy making an expensive care package for my emancipator (wink) and planning and scheming with Karl. You can all blame the two of them for my absence. I will see you this evening around uh - 8:00PM. I won’t be staying long, though. I have school tomorrow (Wednesday) starting at 6:45AM (spin class) and a rather long day at school (I’m there until 4:00PM) followed by a private torture session at the gym with my fave nazi at 5:00PM - so I need my rest. Since I changed my Wednesday Evening class at school to Friday afternoon, I’ll be logged in Wednesday Evening, too. Due to the long day, however, I will be logged in around 8PM and staying until Midnight. Long day - I’ll try to stay up that late but may turn in earlier if I start hallucinating. Thursdays are still a bit up in the air. Sometimes I go to my writing class, the last few weeks I haven’t been able to drag myself there, though. We’ll see. Friday I’ll see you around 10:00PM and by that time I’ll post my weekend schedule. Gotta run…Catch me if you can… if not - no worries! In the next couple of weeks I’ll have more of an idea what my schedule will be and I’ll post it for all to see. Until then - keep track of me under “twitter” on my side bar over there>> and I will keep you up to date as best I can what my working hours will be.

Talk soon!

Update: I’m really sorry about Wednesday nite, guys. I had a bday party that I completely forgot about - and it was a late late dinner (we had to wait for my whole family to be in one place at the same time…) and then there were presents and cake and ice cream. Then I had to take a shower as I had a super long day today and had just gotten home in time to help set everything up but not to actually CLEAN up. So not pretty. And now … I’m exhausted. I could sign in but honestly I would be of absolute no value for your buck (& .87 cents) so I’m just going to head to bed with promises that I will be on tomorrow. I am going to skip my writing class yet again (sigh … will I ever go?! I just don’t have the time to do everything I want to these days!) so I’ll be available after spin class. 8:00PM. If I go to bed right now I can get a decent night’s sleep and be refreshed enough to stay up until at least midnight/1:00AM Friday Morning (Thursday evening). So look for me then. Sorry again about tonight. If any of you tried to get in touch with me this evening, send me a note and I’ll apologize more profusely (wink wink nudge nudge). See you Thursday Eve.

So I’ve finished yet another week of school, and thankfully I survived.  I got my first A on my math test and I feel a bit of confidence brewing.  I don’t want to get too confident, but so far my method of doing all my homework immediately after my class, no matter how boring it is, and doing all of my problems, even AND odds (the teacher only assigns the odd problems), is working to my benefit.  I will continue doing all of the same things for the next test.  So far I understand everything that we are covering.  I’ll still do a few problems of review over the weekend so that I don’t forget anything.  I want to continue my straight A semesters if I can.  ;)  I have some philosophy left to do this evening, so this post will not be a long one.  I just promised I would have an addendum to my last post - and well, here it is. 

But wait.  Before I talk about my schedule this weekend - how did you enjoy the pod cast?  I heard from a few of you via email and Karl stopped in to tell me how my YTWD theme music makes him hard (gonna have to remember that for later, baby! lol!) - but what about the rest of you?  Kind of like old times, isn’t it?  For those of you who listened, you know that the yellow bus kids and I are about to have some serious adventures this semester that will be sure to keep you entertained while I attend school and fight for my A’s. LOL!  Today in “Study Hall” as I have termed it, the ysbks (yellow school bus kids) and I were out of control.  It felt like Friday in there - we were all hyper and stuff and well, it’s never really a good plan to stick 4 or more ADHD, ADD, and other questionably diagnosed kids in a room with various math problems with a pretty attractive male tutor.  It’s really not a good idea. 

“So, Matt….”

“Yeah?”

“How did you and math become so close?”

“What do you mean, CeCe?”

“Did you have like one of those seedy beginnings?  Were you interested in Science, but then you caught sight of Math from a distance and knew that you were destined to become lovahs?”

“CeCe - get back to work.”

…

“Do you think of us in terms of letters and more than, less than, and pi symbols - or are we our names?”

“CeCe - what the hell are you talking about?”

“When you write in your journal, Matt.  You know - at night - when you’re writing in your journal?  With your plate of cookies and glass of milk by your lap top? ‘Dear Diary, today I taught some kids about the laws of divisibility.  I saw the light in square root of 49’s eyes as she grasped the idea of how 31422 is divisible by 3 and I knew my job was complete…’ “ 

“CeCe - seriously - get back to work.”

“Writing in journals isn’t all that bad, Matt.”

“CeCe…”

“I’ll probably jot down a few things about this conversation in mine later.”

“What is my name going to be?”

“Matt.”

“Why?”

“Matt Damon.”

“Again I ask…WHY?”

“Good Will Hunting…”

“Get back to work, CeCe.”

“Fine, Matt.”

Good times! lol.

He’s way too young for me though.  I know some of you were wondering.

So back to my schedule this weekend.  My weeks are still a horrible mess.  I switched my philosophy class to Friday Mornings (fit in to my schedule while still allowing me to take spin.  I know I sound like a junky but spin class is serious coke.  I kid you not. So - Wednesday’s should open up now for calls in the evenings.  I have not gone to my writing class in forever on Thursdays because of my schedule, but, hopefully I’ll be able to in the upcoming weeks.  We’ll see.  So while I get all of this worked out continue to take note of my twitter on the side bar over there >> and if I’m logged in I’ll make an announcement or two.  You can also, as always, send me a note and request a special time.  If I get the requests ahead of time I can plan for it - so let me know as soon as you are able to and we’ll confirm and set up a time. 

The weekend schedule is as follows:

Friday:  Will log in no later than 10:00PM (PST).  (allowing dinner with parents and winding down after the day, etc). Will attempt to stay up until 1:00AM/2:00AM.  But I warn you.  It may not be pretty after 1:00AM…just a fair warning.

Saturday: Will log in for morning hours around 10AM (PST).  Will attempt to work for a few hours and then log off until evening.  I will log in for my Evening hours no later than 10:00PM (PST) but CeCe reserves the right to change her mind should her parents decide to take her out to a movie or dinner or something.  I will definitely let you know should my plans change from 10:00PM PST.  I will be working late even though CeCe’s parents are staring at her wondering why she isn’t going to church anymore Sunday Mornings. Plan on seeing me up until at least 1:00AM PST.  I may pass out before then but I will give it the good college TRY.

Sunday:  Will log in and out during the late mornings/afternoons.  There is a chance I might catch a spin class on Sunday, but I might just treadmill it or walk a few miles with Jackson.  Monday Morning Spin Class will come all too soon. Will log in early on Sunday evening - probably around 7:00PM/8:00PM PST and only staying on until 11:00PM MAX.  Got a 7:00am Spin Class at school and it seriously already kicks my ass. I don’t need further help from having had too many orgasms the night before.

So there we have it.  I’m going to sticky this too my computer/date book/and put it in my iCal (grin) so I will not forget.  If by some FLUKE I’m not available when I’ve said that I will be, email me on niteflirt and let me know when you attempted to call.  If indeed I was not available with out prior notification and if it was due to my … irresponsibility (lol!) and not some dire emergency like Jackson fighting a coyote in the back yard or something, I’ll make sure you are compensated for your troubles.  How about THAT for some incentive?

Talk to you soon - wish me luck on my philosophy assignment.  I may need it.

For your audio pleasure! Enjoy.

P.S. Post regarding schedule for weekend to follow this evening.

Post to follow - but for now, enjoy the “chocolates” - less caffeine (although I’m sure I’ll keep you ‘up’) and fewer cavities, though I’m twice as sweet…:) Enjoy the free gallery. Also some of you should check your emails to see if you have a little something there, too. If you do not see anything just email me and let me know, nf email was being a bit bitchy with me today and I might have inadvertently missed a few of my favorites in the process. ALSO - there is a new offer for the next month. You can find it for now on my main “anything goes” listing right there near the top. I’ll include the button in a post to follow.

Oh - and - there’s more to come. Seriously. There is.

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