I had philosophy class today.  I’m not sure about my professor.  He tends to really dig the guy students in class.  By now everyone should know I have this insane need to please men in positions of authority.  The fact that my teacher prefers male students, to the point that he often asks them (and there are more men in philosophy class than women – interesting?) more questions and has discussions with them about their reactions to our readings while the women sit around and … I don’t know, look cute?  It’s unsettling.  And for me, the one in our family most likely to argue anything to the point of fossilized horse – never mind dead horse – I find my teacher not asking me questions infuriating. To say the least.  So Philosophy class is my favorite class, but I enjoy my math class more.  Yeah.  I said it. 

I enjoy discussing things.  My blog should be proof of that, right?  But I enjoy answers.  I enjoy knowing the answers and I enjoy showing the person who dares to argue with me the error of his/her ways.  In philosophy there is no clear answer.  It seems like it’s really about a bunch of people – pardon me – MEN – sitting around with long white beards talking themselves into circles and in the end?  Everyone ends up having the satisfaction of telling the other person that their arguments, though worthy, mean nothing and they will continue believing what they want to!  It’s even different than literature in my opinion.  In literature there is always (most often) the author or notes from the author so that you have an idea of the interpretation.  There is also some connection to something that you have gone through – some human experience that binds us to the book that we can hold onto.  But philosophy?  “Is there a God.”  Well – damn.  How long have we been debating this idea?  “Is there such a thing as free will?”  Well – damn- if you convince me that there isn’t,  I’ll be reconsidering my whole life! Is there such a thing as Universal Good and Bad?  Are there things universally speaking that are bad no matter if you live in the suburbs of Southern California or in a village in the middle of the rain forest?  When I leave philosophy – I’m left with a list of books that I want to read – but no answers whatsoever.  Do people get paid for this?  Thinking?  Wait – let me rephrase that… Do people get paid for thinking and never coming up with any answer just more questions?  And people had a problem with my career choice to one day be a novelist!  So in case any one has some spare time on their hands and wants to know what I’m reading and maybe pick up a book or two or dust off the books on your shelves and take out some writings by Aristotle, here is the list of books SO FAR for my philosophy class.  I have about 1/3 of them so far with no time to read any of them.  Well, except for The Language of God by Francis Collins.  That book is really a great read.  I have a few C.S. Lewis books that are pretty fascinating, too: Mere Christianity, and Surprised By Joy.  My father dropped Aristotle’s Of Man & The Universe in my lap the other day.  I read the first page 10 times before I understood what the first paragraph was saying.  Some of these philosophers pack so many thoughts into one sentence it makes my head swim.  I’d like to pick up a book by Luann Brizendine that my teacher recommended called The Female Brain – which is suppose to be a good introduction to neuroscience.  I’d also like to pick up some Plato – with cliff notes.  We were talking about the stages of death today and I remembered in one of my classes discussing Elisabeth Kubler Ross who wrote On Death and Dying. And there are many more, but those are the books that stand out.  So my point?  How does anyone ever get a degree out there?  There are so many things to read – so many things to discover – so many things to figure out!  And once you take one class don’t you want to take another class?  I mean – now I want to take a religion class so I can figure out if I want to continue half way practicing my little rituals that my religion calls me to do – or if I just wanna trade it in for some cooler religion/spiritual practice like Buddhism.  The more you learn – the more you want to learn, don’t you?  I do.  The more I hear about a particular philosopher, the more I want to read about the people who influenced him.  The more I want to read about what he thought was important and the books that helped shape him (or her) – the more I want to read everything.  And who has time for all that?  All my classes have this hope that I’ll drop my plans on being whatever I thought I was going to be before I entered their class – and most of the time I consider it for a half a minute.  And I’m aware that school is all about trying to figure things out – but there is so much to figure out and so much to learn and know.  And there are only so many hours in a day.  And some of those hours I have to spend with you (smiles) and the other hours I need to spend spinning (LOL!)

Enough of that!  There are some things I’m working on that should be revealed sometime on Sunday as I’m still on schedule. annnnnd… it’s officially the weekend!  And while I have studying to do – I also can (if I let myself) sleep in tomorrow and lounge about, play with toys and you whenever I (and you) feel like it.  Tonight (Friday) I will be available till at least midnight.  I’ll play it by ear and let ya know via twitter.  Tomorrow I plan on having a little bit of time logged in during the day/early afternoon if possible.  For sure I’ll be logging in on Saturday from 10:00PM (maybe earlier if I’m around…) until 1:00/2:00 am.  Sunday I’d like to work early as I have to be in bed by 10:00PM at least so I’m up and alert by 6:00 to go to my spin class at school.  I also have a list of things to do that will keep me quite busy this weekend, in addition to my math homework I need to complete and some reading I need to do in philosophy.  Don’t let my schedule for school scare you, though.  I’ll have plenty of time to play – and actually require it.  It keeps me sane and relieves tension to masturbate, didn’t you know? hehe.

Have a great weekend – stay of trouble (or call me if you can’t help yourself! )  and take a look at the moon when you can (and it’s visible).  It’s pretty beautiful and more than romantic.   Speak to you soon!