I made a decision not so long ago that there would be certain topics I would leave for private entries - and/or phone conversations. Sex is definitely one of those topics. I know it may seem sort of silly to first time visitors of this blog that I’m a Phone Sex Operator that doesn’t want to talk about sex all out in the open like - but there is a method to my madness. I’ve always wanted this blog to be a place where my callers (and potential callers) can get a glimpse into what makes me tick - what I think about - and well - I want them to know that there is a real girl behind all the NF hoopala, you know? I go through things that normal girls go through - breakups - break outs (lol) - cramming for math tests when I had all weekend to prepare, fights with my parents, occasional blue spells, buyers remorse (LOL!) and even the occasional laugh attack over some funny link that comes my way. This link happens to be of sexual nature - so I’m bending the rules just a tiny bit this time. *wink*

When I was in chat last weekend speaking to a few girls in my attempt to avoid - well - to avoid life, basically, I was given this link. When I went to look at it I fell out laughing. I could not stop the tears from falling. It just … nah uh. The comments on this site were the best - I didn’t even really need to look at the toy much at all for the humor. The comments make it seem like this is just some every day activity - and well, I live in the suburbs. I know I know - I’m in the “sex” industry, too - and people have their opinions about my job and they probably sound an awful lot like my comments about the anal ring toss - but read the comments at the site and tell me it ain’t funny! They sound a bit like this:

Hey - I got this little anal ring toss as a gift for my girlfriend. I couldn’t wait to try it out! I put her on her knees - yanked those panties on down and called over Bob and Earl from next door. Handing them their rings, we went to work trying to pin the ring around the asshole. Bob didn’t really have that great of an aim - but Earl got a hole in one every damn time! After we finished up the game - we all sat on the porch, drank a few Old Milwaukees, and planned for the next time. Earl wants to wear the anal ring toss next. I’ll let you know how it all works out. 5 stars for me, though. This is one hell of a good time!

The more I think about this the more I’m curious about it. I feel a bit like I’m missing out on some real fun activity or something. My brother’s use to do this to me (not the anal ring toss - stop being perverted!) when they wanted to trick me into something. They’d sit around and talk up some horrible tasting food like it was delicious - until I begged to try it. Then they’d hand me some frog leg or something and laugh hysterically at the face I made when they told me I had just tasted Kermit the Frog.

Maybe the anal ring toss is just another frog leg. But then - maybe not? Anyone wanna test it out and give me a review I can actually believe?

My old bedroom had these floors that had the appearance of wood, but I think it was some imitation cheaply made substance instead. I had roomed with my brother for many years until it became apparent to my mother that I was ready for my own room. The boys were shoved into a smaller room down the hall with bunk beds and one closet shared between them that smelled slightly of old tennis shoes and wet socks, and I - the darling little girl got my dream bedroom: pink curtains, closet with mirrors on the doors, and a window dressed up in lacey curtains with a perfect view of our front lawn. I was in heaven.

I can not remember how I first discovered it - and I have several stories that involve the act I performed under my covers - but the details of how these activities entered my head is all one big blur. What is exceptionally clear, however, is that I was an active masturbator and I knew that what I was doing was very, very bad.

I mentioned the floors in my old bedroom because it is important to the story, believe it or not. I have only told my one true friend this little fact that I’m going to share with the universe (lol) so pay very close attention. Somehow - somewhere - and sometime I discovered that if I put a little marble inside of my panties and rubbed it around on my clit - that it felt good. Then I discovered that I could somehow squeeze it inside and move it in and out of the opening with the my vaginal muscles I didn’t know/realize I had - and it would feel EXTREMELY good - then I discovered that if I placed a pillow inbetween my legs with the marble inside of me - and squeezed the pillow that I could move the marble in and out, too. And finally, I discovered the sound the marbles made in the middle of the night as they rolled out of bed and onto the floor. Sometimes it would wake me up - and often it would wake up my parents. My mother would come into my room and pick up the marbles and never return them back to me. I’m pretty sure she knew what I was doing with them…but she never ever ever ever mentioned it to me - just picked up the marbles and went about her business I think. The next evening I would find another marble, usually in the game closet, and again fall asleep - and in the morning, once again, the marble would be gone. My brother’s bag of marbles quickly diminished, the chinese checker game never had enough marbles to play again - and no one ever confronted me about my marble fetish.

Isn’t it a bit odd that in a family that never talked about masturbation - here I am on NF encouraging, promoting, and faciliating masturbation? Maybe it’s relief that I can now finally talk about sex so openly with my callers that makes this job not only interesting and rewarding, but also just … therapeutic. Maybe it’s the talking about it that makes me not feel like such a freak, makes me open my eyes a bit wider and take in different points of views. I’m not going to elevate myself to a sex therapist or anything like that, especially since alot of the time I feel my callers are more sane than I am - and you’ve all been my therapists. This whole experience on NF has helped me re-write alot of my past and helped heal parts of my past that I never really got to speak to anyone about. I find acceptance here.

Imagine instead of my actual experience something like this instead: my marble rolls across the floor and stops short of your foot. You bend down and pick it up. Okay - maybe you’d smell it or something (lol) but eventually you’d hand it back to me. Okay - maybe you’d pocket it - and replace it with a new one. You’d probably take a mental note of the size of marble and the next time you were at a toy store pick me up another bag of them - because you, dear readers, would understand…(You see it coming, don’t you? *sigh* I can’t resist) Losing ones marbles is never a good thing. *wink*

I start school tomorrow… tuesday-thursday I will not be available until after 6:00PM PST. I may be on a bit earlier in the afternoon for a few hours here and there (would be around 3:00PM PST) but that’s not for certain… Monday, Friday, Saturday & Sunday I’ll be available in the mornings if need be. I’ll keep you posted.

Off to bed I go!

So, as my last post stated, I have been busy de-cluttering my life. I figured I’d start in my room and have been going strong for the past 2 days. You would think my room was huge, huh? It’s not - I just havehad a lot of stuff that I just wasn’t using anymore. I’ve packed up a few boxes to bring to Good Will tomorrow - and I have my loft left to go. I’m thinking that by Monday I should be pretty much in the clear. Thank God. This has been a bigger task than I had initially anticipated.

I so enjoyed opening up drawers and tossing things into the trash, though. I figure if I haven’t worn something in the past 2 months I’m not going to start now - summer clothes the only exception to the rule. Mismatched socks I keep waiting to be reunited with their better half? Toss. Panties that have holes in them? Toss. Tank tops that have seen better days? Toss. Lingerie that reminds me of my last boyfriend? Burn then Toss. LOL! I am a tossing fool. I also went thru my books and decided which books to keep and which to give away - and I decided to part with a few of my books from the courses I took at a nearby college this summer. I know that I could sell them back for a fraction of the price I paid for them - but many of my books aren’t even going to be used next year. I figure SOMEONE will want them at the Good Will. Let them collect them and bring the “stuff” back to their home - I’m finished with it.

So after a few last hours of sorting (this time thru markers, pens, and colored pencils) I’m done. The rest of this is going to have to wait until tomorrow. The good news? I think I’ve done enough that I finally feel like writing. I’m not completely over my writer’s block that has been sitting on my shoulders for the past … what? 3 days now? But I feel it decreasing in size quite a bit. The stuff has been cleared and has made a way for inspiration, I think. I feel it coming… mmmmm…. YEAH!!!

Before I go for the evening - let me just give a few “howdies” and “how do you dos” to a few people who have gently interupted my whole clean sweep mission with some great calls/tips/letters.

To 2 n’s who is in Scotland flirting with the lasses and wearing kilts for the next two weeks: Thank you so much for the gifts. I know they are on their way - and they are not yet in my capable hands - but THANK YOU. I have cleared the way on my bookshelf for them (lol! Come on - I KNOW you’re getting me books!) and I can’t wait to see what you have recommended for me this time!

To clue everyone else in on what has been happening: I have started to collect lists of books from my callers who love to read. What you can do (at any time and in any order) is send me a list of some books that you think are books that everyone should read. I don’t want to know what books are on the best sellers list or whatever - I want to know what books you find instrumental/noteworthy/important. I’m not saying that I will necessarily read every book on your list - but I’m curious to know what everyone is reading. I also need to read more so I’m starting a little CeCe book club of sorts. You can send the list you’ve created to celinawetdreams (gmail address) if you feel so inclined to do so. K. Thanks!

Um - I have officially become a little “band aid” I think! What should I name you? I think I’m going to name you, “gently weeps” - as in “my guitar gently weeps”. Yeah. GW for short, k? k.
So GW is on tour and has a roomie! (giggles). So my pictures are currently keeping him company since there is no way he can tell his roomie to get the hell out of the hotel room so he can phone bone his online band aid! I just find that so… Almost Famous-y. I’ve never slept with a band member before, either. Not an “official” band member. We (GW&I) became acquainted a few days ago and we hit it off rather nicely. He has the kind of fantasy that I love - and after our fantasy he actually held onto it by telling me that he was going to keep his eye on me from his house across the street. I love it when I can continue on with the fantasy even after the call has “ended”. “UNBELIEVABLE… I am breathless. I cannot speak, walk, or even stand. That was truly perfection. “ Thank you so much, GW. You’re perfect, too! Can’t wait to hear all about your tour when you get home!

To my somewhat disobedient panty boy (where are the measurements and stats, little one?) who I talked to nearly a week ago now: YOU are FUN! I have actually considered starting a new listing - even though “anything goes” pretty much covers all bases. I think a nice little feminization listing will do my spirit (and body) good!! If I can instruct little panty boys who dress up in women’s clothing as I’ve instructed you - the world will be a much prettier place. Like I said - I LOVE projects - and makeovers are my speciality! The thought of having you in front of me - and my M.A.C. products lined up in a row - and dipping my make up brushes into pretty colors that will transform you into the perfect little slut is more than I can stand! Now if you can just go ahead and send me your inventory so I can give you a shopping list - things can move on ahead to the next stage! Excellent call! She has an amazing voice and is very knowledgeable about various fetishes and kinks. i will be calling again. Thank You. Why thank you ever so much, pretty one. Now - stop procrastinating, say bye to your little girlfriend as she trots to work not ever guessing in a million years that you’ll be in her closet dick in hand, and get me my lists so we can go shopping!

Seems the piictures continue to be a popular “aid” (lol!) to our phone encounters, too! These are some of the BEST pics of CeCe I have seen. They are so fucking HOT. Seeing her use that glass dildo. Watching her open her sweet pink pussy wide open. I’m still shaking. I put on the slide show loop and just watched and jerked off. Her pics got me so hot. I came hard, I mean real hard. Just had to log back and tell you how great they were, but my hands are still shaking its hard to type. Joe sure liked them!! I didn’t even realize that one could put them on slide show - but now that I think about it … what a WONDERFUL idea!!! I happen to like the glass dildo set particularily well. I have to get some pics of me using my favorite toy, soon - but in the meantime all you boys should probably check out the picture set of the … month? lol! The glass dildo was an old favorite that I tend to neglect because of Mr. Hitachi - but I may just have to break him out of his cell (drawer) next time dear sweet Joe calls! You can put on the slide show again, Joe, while I play with that dildo on the phone with you at the same time. Won’t THAT be a good time?

Can I mention one more person before I close for the evening…? She’s amazing! Cece, I feel a level of intimacy with you that should be impossible in this format. Thank you!
I feel the same way, Sweetie! I say it so much that sometimes even I get sick of hearing it - but here I go again: I’m way lucky. I’m only able to give myself so intimately, G.L. because you’re able to give of yourself so intimately. You make it incredibly easy, absolutely fabulous, and tremendously exciting to have these fantasies with you. In addition to being one of my very first callers - you are one of my sweetest callers, too. Thank you so much for your sweet and generous feedback.

As always - to those I may have not named - you have not been forgotten. Check your emails later on (by the end of this weekend for sure) for something very special. I know I didn’t “have” to - but neither did all of you who saw to give me sweet words just because you were so moved to. Just a little “tit” for that. *slaps knee* I’m so clever sometimes!

Ok - I gotta get to bed. I have a trip to good will tomorrow with my family - and I have more last minute cleaning to do before I get to sit back and admire all my hard work. Then I also am going to work on a few recordings tomorrow - and finish up a few things here on the site, too. (Oh Teeeeeeeee… I’m finally handing in my homework!!!). (On an aside: Have any of you noticed who’s site is FEATURED on Tee’s designing page? Yup - that would be your cute little CeCe!! Coolio Beans!!!) And yes, I’ll be taking calls off and on tomorrow. More than likely in the morning - then back on again from the evening to late late evening. I’m NOT going to go out - I have to start organizing myself for 2nd summer session - and then Fall Semester at college. Maybe I’ll get to take more ORAL examinations tomorrow. (wink wink nudge nudge). I’m always game for playing school!

I think I would like to marry my hitachi wand.  You do know what it is, don’t you?  It’s a “massager” with a huge round head - that you place on your clit … or on any aching muscle (haha) and it delivers what can only be described as heaven.  The hitachi wand could put men out of business.  I’m telling you.

I usually play with my hitachi wand during my really hot calls.  Sometimes I don’t actually get a chance to take it out and use it which really makes me a bit sad - but most of the time I do get to use it.  The orgasms it delivers are quick - intense - and heavenly.  I’ll be using heaven and other variations of that word often when I mention my wand…get use to it!   Anyways … Why did I bring this up? Well - I brought it up because I just got done making the most intense recording with my wand.  It is so amazing that I really don’t even know how I can top it. 

I have been trying to make a recording of me playing with Mr. Hitachi Wand now for days.  Everytime I get ready to use it - something happens.  My friend Tara calls me - or Kylie calls me - or I get interupted by my family coming home suddenly - or the gardener comes and starts making more noise than is humanly possible while he mows the law… SOMETHING always has interupted me.  But not this time!!!  I finally finished the recording - and I actually came.  Not the fake little cum sounds that some people may make at the end of their recordings - but an actual real life can’t catch my breath god this feels so good I think I’m going to wet my pants real orgasm! 

I just have to wait for the damn thing to be approved.  So I want everyone who reads this to keep in mind that I have an alternative to the times/days where I am not available and you need a little CeCe fix…Check out the hitachi wand recording and be prepared to shoot a load.  I’m wondering if you’ll even make it thru the whole recording because my voice is shaking from the sensation of Mr. Hitachi Wand as soon as I start recording!  But I hope that some of you do make it to the big finish!  Let me know how you like it.

I seriously have nothing more to say.  I have that “god I just came and now I don’t want to do anything for a minute” feeling…

I’ll be on for a little bit.  If you’re “up” for it - and if I’ve recovered by then - give me a call and ask me to introduce the two of you.  The way he makes my little pussy clench and squeeze will probably make you as big of a fan as I have become…