So now I have a month off from school and I have ever intention of catching up on some things around here. Things are starting (finally) to look up around here, and I am proud to have not given in to the panic that surrounded me. I guess the paid mails are even working fine as of late. See? Patience IS a virtue!

Some of you remembered my birthday and thank you, but I’ve stopped celebrating them. If you call me, you’ll notice that I’m 19 again. I figure it’s a good year, and that way no one has to wonder why a 20 somethin’ year old is still going under “teenwetdream”. It will be our little secret. I still have my braces on, so as far as I’m concerned, I still look like a teen, and well, I’m still fighting to keep myself well with in your dreams. Yeah, I’m still corny.

So this is really just a quick update. If I make it too long it will be another 2 months before I post it. It is Monday, the 28th of December, and I will be logging in around 8:00PM this evening (that’s California Pacific time) and staying logged in until I can’t keep my eyes open. You should call me and say hi, if you haven’t had the chance. I definitely look forward to reconnecting with some of you AND meeting new and kinky/interesting men, too! Thank you for your patience these past few months, not only with niteflirt’s issues, but with my school schedule and stuff. I’m back. I promise.

I have to switch out my call buttons because I realized the other day that (duh) they don’t show my real status. So for many of you, you’ve come here to see if I’m on, looked at the little button to the right and saw that I wasn’t, and gone about your business - when all along I’ve been available and waiting to hear from you. I really am hell bent on staying positive, so let’s just say one collective “oops” and keep it going (glares at niteflirt beta).

So really quickly - cuz I have tons of homework to do before i can log back in this evening - this is my plan of action. I have been logged in all afternoon and kept pretty busy - so busy in fact that I now have to log off so I can get some homework done! I slept most of the night AND into the morning (didn’t go to church..) and will more than likely be sleeping tomorrow am as well. Got a little touch of the flu a few days ago and am still recovering. Yeah - I call niteflirt calls recovering! So … it’s almost 6:30PM PST - I will be logging back in around 9:30PM. I won’t be checking emails until then because I am easily distracted and will probably never start my homework because I’ll be reading emails, then shopping on ebay, then fixing my wish lists, and then writing some stories… lol. 9:30PM - Promise. Pinky swear. If I’m not here/available - send me a note on niteflirt. If I see you were actually looking for me and I wasn’t around for your call - you’ll get something special from me. How’s THAT for a bit of incentive for the both of us?

Talk soon!

Ok - so it’s 6:33PM California time. Hope to see you by at least 10:00PM if not a little bit early.

Hang in there. Just a little bit longer.

On top of all of this, though, I am still a student. I’m trying to study my algebra, spanish, and journalism, while figuring out how I can best keep my guys satisfied even though they can hardly find me to call me and … blah blah blah.

So I’m trying to be positive here. Let’s see how well I do.

You can, for now, attempt to reach me at the beta address shared in an earlier post. Since it is a TEST site there are going to be some issues in regards to it. These issues should be reported and told to me as soon as you are able to - either by email address (celinawetdreams at gmail.com *no spaces*)or by the customer support form on niteflirt if you are able to get to that page. Some known issues I’ve heard so far are that while adding money to your account the system is having a hard time recognizing your information. You may be prompted to enter this information again over the telephone. If you are not comfortable doing this over the phone, please contact me so that I can pass on your concerns to the proper department and see if we can’t make other suitable arrangements. I’ve also heard that there are problems getting through the new phone system. I’m not sure what to say except please let me know should you ever have a problem reaching me while I’m showing AVAILABLE. I would encourage you all to keep a record of the calls that you make with me and double check that these charges match with your activity.

I apologize from the deepest part of my heart for the inconvenience this maintenance has caused. I assure you that it is TEMPORARY and NF is doing all they can to get us back up and running as soon as possible. Many of us are here, waiting for your calls, and eager to get back into the swing of things. So let’s do what we can to have a great time in the meantime!

I’ll be logged in for another 3 hours this evening and then I’ll be hitting the hay. But I will be back on tomorrow evening. Please let me know should you have any questions/concerns or wish for me to pass along a message to the powers that be. I look forward to speaking with all of you very soon!

More soon…

Talk soon.

But I’m back now. Well rested - and starting a new fall semester of college! I am so excited! I have a Journalism class I’ll be taking, and I’m taking a foreign language because some of the colleges I want to transfer to require it, and then I’m taking Algebra. I will definitely be taking a math class every semester for the next year and then hopefully I will have enough math to fill my requirement. I’m hoping. So now that my fall semester is figured out, I have the following weeks to spend with you, doing all those things I promised I’d do, but ran out of time. I won’t list them all here as I don’t currently trust myself to complete them yet. I use to really love writing lists - long lists - of about 100 things I wanted to do and then post them here for the world to see. But failing at completing the list became a bit much. It’s kinda like setting yourself up to fail a little bit. I have a tentative list right here beside me of the things I’d like to do today. I’ll let you know how I do at the end of the day, how about that.

FOr now - one of the things I’m completing is - writing in this blog. I’ve neglected it for a bit, and I also lost a little direction in regards to what I wanted to write about. I’m forever doubting what I’m doing here on this blog — I need to just quit it already and resign myself to the fact that I am a writer - and my blogs are going to be a bit different than the blogs that other girls do. I’m introspective and touchy feel-y and I rarely talk about things that include the words pussy, cock, and cum. I figure *for me* that it’s just a cheap way to go. I’d rather work a bit more at my entries - and leave the easier playful things for our calls - if that’s what you want. Or a recording. Or a story. This blog is my little “get to know me more intimately” measure. I dunno. It’s not as confusing as it needs to be though - so I’m going to stop making an issue of it. We all know how I write by now … so … um … get over it and move on. So yeah - I was saying - I’m writing in my blog! (checks it off her list) Yay, CeCe! I know. You’re waiting for it, aren’t you? the promises to write more. The something that I put in writing that you can remind me of when I fail to do once again (haha). It’s not going to happen. This is the new CeCe. I have a goal in mind - I’ll let you know when I’ve reached it.

So I was on vacation. I was on vacation that I hadn’t even really planned on. I knew I was going, but I hadn’t made “a plan” - I just knew it had to happen so I packed and I went for it. And you know, I’m glad I didn’t plan for it. Of course, it would have been better if I would have had a bit more money saved up for the thing, and it would have been MUCH better had I made arrangements to let everyone here know I was going, etc. etc. but one thing I’ve noticed about myself is that the more I think about doing something, the less I do it. I just have to DO it and stop making plans to do it or writing lists to do it and blah blah blah. Sometimes my fixating on certain aspects makes me less active in actually doing the thing. Like Nike, right? So I just did vacation. I went to MN to visit my family I haven’t seen in a long time, and I basked in the sunshine and absorbed the green that only MN can give you. I know there are “green” places all over - but MN has a kind of lush green that no other place has. When you’re in Minnesota, you can practically hear the color green. You can taste the color green. Green sinks into your soul and makes everything mellow and safe and almost dream like. Had it not been for my assignments I still needed to get in, I would have risked being eaten alive by mosquitos and just rowed out into the middle of the lake with a great book and napped and read, dreaming of a few of you taking shifts to sit next to me for a bit and feed me grapes and cheddar cheese or something. !

When I lived in Minnesota, I thought that California was the greener side of the fence. When I moved to California, I did not notice, at first, the sprinklers working over time because rain doesn’t love California the way it loves Minnesota. I trained my tongue to flirt over my o’s and adopted a sort of “tv valley girl” speech - something more sophisticated than the mid west lilt I grew up with. I forced myself to think of myself as a city girl, pretended that skim milk was better than whole and that spending 100 bucks on a dress was sensible, even when a pretty one from old navy would do just fine. I taught myself to look at the yellow brown green and identify it with summer, trained my nose to take in the ocean as a suitable substitute for ten thousand lakes, said soda instead of pop. But ya know what? Flying into MN at 6:00 in the morning with barely enough sunlight to make out the squares of farms and the ink blots of lake after lake after lake can’t hide the green from your eyes. The green rises up to meet you. Beckons you to come in for a landing. Paves the way to pastures overflowing with life that will melt on your tongue. Minnesota is that greener side of the fence. I’m sure of it.

So I’m thinking…I’d like to be that “greener side of the fence” for you. I’d like to be that one thing that fills up your senses, makes you know you’re undoubtedly talking to CeCe. I’d like to be the one who rains down on you just a little bit more frequently and is just a bit more taste-y, a bit more wholesome, a bit more fresh than anything else you’ve experienced. If I can do that during a call or two, I will be happy. You can have that one impromptu vacation day contained in how ever many minutes you have. Escape. Play. Dream with me. You’ll be glad you did!

More later.

You’ve all made me a very, very happy girl.
Talk soon!

I just wanted to let the ones who read my ramblings know that I am still here. A little bruised on the inside, a bit reflective, a bit perplexed by love — but still here. Still CeCe. Still me. I will write more soon.